HELL0 EVERYB0DY;

i`M D0NE XANGA F0R A WHiLE . . . iT`S BEC0MiNG A WASTE 0F MY TiME

i`M JUST STARTiNG T0 REALiZE THiNGS ARE S0 MUCH M0RE iMP0RTANT iN LiFE! AS WE GR0W 0LDER, WE START T0 REALiZE M0RE AND M0RE WHAT WiLL AND WHAT WiLL N0T MATTER iN 0UR FUTURES.

THiNGS THAT WiLL MATTER iN Y0UR FUTURE; Y0UR FRiENDS AND FAMiLY WH0 HAVE STUCK BY Y0UR SiDE, Y0UR GRADES AND EDUCATi0N, AND ALWAYS STAYiNG TRUE T0 Y0URSELF.

THiNGS THAT WiLL NEVER MATTER iN Y0UR FUTURE; JUDGEMENTS AND ASSUMPTi0NS THAT HAVE BEEN MADE AGAiNST Y0U, PE0PLE THAT BRiNG Y0U D0WN, AND H0W NiCE Y0UR XANGA iS // H0W MUCH TiME Y0U SPEND 0N iT! i C0ULD G0 0N BUT i CH00SE N0T T0. i`M JUST TRYiNG T0 PR0VE A P0iNT.

<3

L0VE; LAUREN

 

 

M00D; Happy yet confused…?
LiKiNG; Reggae =]
DiSLiKiNG; Assumptions // Judgments // Hypocrites
WEARiNG; A gray sweat outfit // set and a white shirt under. White AF1`s.
LiSTENiNG T0; Bob Marley “No Woman No Cry”
WiSHiNG; That this coming weekend would last forever.

Hola kiddos!

 Overall, I can actually say this has been a good week. Usually the weekdays are boring as hell, but I`m guessing I had fun because of the half days and whatnot. Grades are good. Friends are good. Family is good. People in general, are not. They`re so judgmental and it`s really pathetic. Not necessarily towards me (even though I know people are), but just to like, everyone! That`s why I try as hard as possible not to judge people constantly because I know it`s not a good feeling. Also, the love department is bad. I haven`t had a boyfriend since the summer and it`s really starting to piss me off. I basically like the feeling of having a boyfriend, what girl doesn`t...? I mean, love from family and friends is great, but the love coming from someone you have feelings for in a different way is completely different. I guess I don`t really know what I`m trying to say. Haha. Oh well . . .

 M0NDAY; Okay, so I find out that the website I ordered my Warped Tour ticket from was fake. Out of curiosity I went on TicketMaster.com and saw that the tickets only cost $25.25! On the website I bought mine from, they were $90. My mom was freaking out because they have her credit card number and everything. She cancelled the order but we`re hoping nothing happens =[ So anyway, we decide to go to Strawbridge`s to get the ticket and I was all happy because paying $25.25 is a WH0LE lot better than paying $90. I thought $90 was a bit much but I was just being stupid. Good thing I found out =]

 TUESDAY; A half day . . . yes =] I didn`t really have plans but Jazzy called me after school saying that I could go out to lunch with her and her mom. Ahh, her mom is so funny! She had me Jazzy and I dyin`! We talked about the formal and whatnot . . . and honestly,  I`m starting not to care about it. Hopefully my mommy and I can go shopping this weekend. I need spring clothes and a dress really bad! After lunch, we went to see Elice cause it was her birthday. It was pretty fun considering I haven`t been down on Elm since forever! It was Jazzy, Richie, Ell, Mike, Ash, Elice, Shelly, Rece, Nick, and I . . . I think…? It was cool chillin` with all my old buddies.

 WEDNESDAY; It was another half day so after school Apryl and I took the bus to Remi`s house. After getting ready and stuff, Safa took us to the Cheltenham Mall to get our pics done. Uhh, they were cute but not like we expected! We looked like a singing group cause we all matched =] If you want a pic, let me know! They`re at the bottom if you want to see them. FYI... I can`t scan pics! After we went to Subway and ate some good hoagies! Remi was still talking about them today . . . haha. A little later we saw Jazzy, Shaii Shaii, Gina, and Rob. We didn`t really chill with them much though. Shaii Shaii - “AWW HELL NAW!“ <-- T00 funny. The way Apryl acted towards that lady was so funny yet so ignorant! I didn`t know if I should have laughed or smacked her…? Haha. And my “Indian Connection” . . . LMA0 =] I seriously hate that mall, it`s so boring! I always say I`m never going to go there again but then I do, unfortunately. But I`m happy I had fun with my girls!

 T0DAY; Boring! These cute triplets came in for HSCS though. This one was so cute! And after school I had my first detention all year! I`m quite proud because I`m doing well compared to 14 detentions last year. I guess being good pays off, but I knew this detention would come eventually! Being late is so easy and teachers piss me off left and right. I have a big ass Science test tomorrow that basically determines whether I have an A or a B in that class for the 3rd marking period. Wish me luck! =[

 I`m out cause I need to start studying. Also, I need to call Dana so we can hopefully chill this weekend! I miss her so much it`s crazy. Plus I want to meet her boyfriend! AND she`s coming to Warped Tour with me. Yay =] I feel so fat x 1472874820 therefore I can`t wait to go to the YMCA tonight!

<3 ; Lauren

Haha . . . the bottoms of our shoes were so dirty! Yucky.

 

 

M00D; chillin`..? also C0NFUSED
LiKiNG; only i know =[
DiSLiKiNG; how much i miss him
WEARiNG; hot pink baby T, jeans, black belt, black AF1`s
LiSTENiNG T0; Usher "Burn" <-- exactly how i`m feeling
WiSHiNG; this weekend wouldn`t end

hola mi amor =] the music is back!

this weekend has been great . . .

FRiDAY; ha.. see what did i tell ya? since i wanted us to have school, we didn`t.. of course. the freakin` snow made me MAD though. geez, what happened to Spring..? that definately should have been a 2 hour delay instead of a snow day. another day added on to the school year..? pshh. i guess it was a cool day after all, though. my plans got messed up like 2873826 times but it ended up being okay. first i was supposed to go to the PF with Lauren and Mo. the dance was cancelled and they never really told me what else they were doing so i just left it at that. next, Jazzy, Shaii, Remi, and i wanted to go to Willow Grove Mall, but that didn`t work out either. then i was supposed to go to church with Remi and Shaii but i didn`t have a ride =[ i really wanted to go too. after that i was talking to Jazzy and we wanted to got to see "Dawn of the Dead" so we were like yeahh we finally have plans. then Sergio calls and says he`s coming down with Madou so that was cool. i finally got to see him after a really long time, i missed him! and Madou, he`s like the coolest person ever. overall it was Jazzy, Sergio, Madou, Polo, and i. so we go, Jazzy`s mom gets the tickets cause it was rated R, and we all start to walk in, i get in and notice they all weren`t behind me. so Jazzy calls and says the security guard was saying we had to leave. i was like whatt. so i go out and he was just a complete ass. he had nothing to back himself up with, considering there were about 127346254 other kids our age in there. it really sucked cause Mikie and Walt went out of their way to meet us there and we couldn`t even chill with them. so anyway, we go to the front, get our refund and this lady [another ignorant person] was giving us attitude too! we were real pissed so we went and waited outside. we were standing there waiting for Jazzy`s mom, minding our business, and out of nowhere he comes out and says "Do you wanna go to jail cause I can get all of you locked up" ahh we wanted to kill him. we were like uhh are you serious..? he had the nerve to tell us to leave the property or else he was going to call the cops. what an ass. so we go to McDonald`s, get our McFlurries, and go chill at Jazzy`s for a little. what an interesting night.

SATURDAY; i basically did nothing all day. i exercised, cleaned, chilled.. boring stuff. then i finally got my ass in the shower and started to get ready for WOW. Shaii couldn`t go.. i missed you babes =[ it ended up just being Jazzy, Polo, and i. as soon as we got there we saw Apryl and her cousin Sheena so we just chilled with them the rest of the night. Sheena is such a sweetheart. i was happy i got to meet her. it was kind of corny at first but once everyone got there it was so fun. i saw George, who i haven`t seen in forever, so i was all happy. haha. wow, until that night i never knew how excited people could get over a white girl that could dance..? once i started dancing with this boy a crowd formed around me and they were like "Go white girl" of "Oh white girl can dance" ahh it was pretty funny. i felt like i was in Save the Last Dance.. haha. then everywhere i went people were calling me "White Girl" and it got really annoying so i was like "I have a name and it`s not White Girl, it`s Lauren" most of the people in there were really cool though, boys and girls. i thought it was about 296462450 x better than Egypt. people were cool, the guys were fine, and basically everyone was dancing. very fun though, i wanna go again. once we all got back at Jazzy`s we just chilled there and i ended up fallin` asleep for like and hour. when i woke up i went home at like 2:3O cause my mom was FiNALLY home and i could FiNALLY get in the house. i`m proud of my mommy though, she`s finally getting out more. as soon as i walked in the door i fell asleep. i was knocked out.

SUNDAY; T0DAY; my daddy came and picked me up at about 11 and we went out to get something to eat. once we finished up we went bowling, yes again! i`m getting better and better everytime =] we played 3 games and in every game my dad beat me by only about 3O, which is pretty good cause he`s a real good bowler. in my last game my final score was 172. G0 ME =] haha sorry, i`m still real excited. after, we went back to my dad`s and my little cousins were over.. Gracey and Alex. they are s0o0o0o adorable! i was playing with them for like two hours. hide and seek gets old after a while so i just went outside and started shooting around. before i knew it like 219744789 kids plus my family came out and we started a game. it was really fun and for some reason my shot was on today, of course when it doesn`t matter. why can`t a make almost all my shots in games..? GRR. i was playing with this little girl Emma after. she`s like my favorite little kid ever. she`s three and she acts like she`s a 10 year old little boy.. it`s so funny. ahh.. i love her. then after everyone left, my daddy, Chris, and i went inside and played X Box. on our way home we ran out of gas and we had to wait for my Aunt Nicey to come and bring us gas. in the meantime we were really bored so we prank called this Chinese Restaurant. i swear it was the funniest thing i`ve ever experienced in my life. ahh, ya gotta love my fam <3 now i`m home, bored, and about to go to sleep cause i got about no hours of sleep this weekend.

here`s some pictures from my adventures by myself today. you really don`t have to look at them, i just got kind of bored and decided to put them up. enjoy..? uhmm, no.

talking on my BEASTY cell phone. i really need a new one.

haha.. don`t ask.

super..? by the way, my thumb has a problem where it just can`t be straight when i give a thumbs up. it really pisses me off.

i`m mean, i know.

Lawyn Luffz Ya =]

i stole this from my Stupid Hommay =]

i`m out . . . i <3 you

 

 

M00D; tired yet not..?
LiKiNG; [ _ _ _ _ ] <-- A L0T <3
DiSLiKiNG; the fact that i`ll never get him back
WEARiNG; light pink soffe shorts, white cami, white socks
LiSTENiNG T0; The Ataris "In This Diary"
WiSHiNG; it doesn`t freakin` snow!

hey ya`ll . . .

okay so i never write in this thing this time of night or in the middle of the week, but something told me it was a must. obiously i have a whole new look. Adobe PS is s0o addicting, even more than Xanga. get ready for a different look like every two seconds. i like those colors together for some reason..? blue, yellow, and white plus Carmello Anthony and the Denver Nuggets! yeahh boyy. those shoes in the background are too hot. i love them. Shaii already got them in grey, white, and pink. how cute. haha and i love the new song, it gets me so hyper! so anyway, comment me and let me know what you think! also, look on Remi`s Xanga. i did her banner =]

grades still suck because of my one freakin` B because Mr. Schindele STiLL can`t teach. i hate that class. school was extremely boring whis week. American Idol is really good this season. i love George, Jasmine, Fantasia, and LaToya. they all have the best personalities and they can sing real good. i`m still s0o excited for Amanda! good luck with the Jersey Idol finals, whenever they are. i exercised every night this week since Sunday though, i`m quite proud. i just need to stop eating so much junk food and i`m set. me and my mommy are going on this diet together starting Monday. i can`t wait. if you follow everything correctly, which will be hard, you can loose up to eight pounds in one week! the diet is three weeks so that equals 24 pounds! [my math skills are incrdible by the way]. i D0UBT majorly that i`ll loose 24 pounds in 3 weeks, yet ever for that matter, but hey.. it`s worth a try.

so the formal is coming up. i`m really excited all of the sudden! my mom and i are supposedly going dress shopping this Sunday. i swear she`s more excited about it than i am. she said the day before we`re gonna go get our nails done and pedicures done together =] i love when we get along, and we have been lately so that`s cool. anyway, back to the formal. so far i`m going with Jason AS FRiENDS! people keep saying "Oh that`s cute!" but really it`s not even like that. i really like someone else but i messed that up a WHiLE ago! Lord knows why i still have really strong feelings for him or even have him on my mind for that matter..? i guess it ended for a reason =[ unfortunately. i hope i find a real cute dress though! my mom`s willing to spend more money though since i`ll be wearing it to my cousin`s wedding too! yes.. summer is coming soon! sike, definately not soon enough. Florida, Cali, Wildwood, Ocean City, Warped Tour, NY.. i can`t WAiT. you just don`t understand.

this weekend should be real fun! tomorrow Mo, Lauren, and i are going to the PF dance. well, hopefully.. if we can get in! if not some girl`s having a party..? i duno we`ll find something to do. then we`re sleeping over Mo`s dad`s house. i`m excited =] i know we`ll have fun! then Saturday i`m finally chillin` with Sergio after 128732164 years! i`m glad we got to talk things out hommay cause i don`t know what i`d do without you. hopefully everyone wants to go to WOW. i`ve never been there but it seems fun. Apryl said there`s some fine Italian boys there so you know i`m excited! haha. yeah.

0H YEAH.. HAPPY BELATED SAiNT PATRiCK`S DAY MY iRiSH PE0PLE!!! represent.. haha sike. how i`m i gonna be a lot of percent Irish and i forget all about St. Patrick`s Day..? oh well.

this Saturday is the first day of Spring, but also my Grammy`s birthday. RIP Grammy! i love you s0o much and i would do anything to have you here with me =[ it`s such an odd coincedence that she was born on the first day of the most beautiful time of year.. well, usually. i wrote a poem about her but it`s way too emotional // personal for me to put up here. i planned on doing so, but i changed my mind. on a happier note, well kind of.. HAPPY SPRiNG WiTH SN0WFLAKES 0N T0P! whew, i crack myself up hahaha. but wow Grammy, i love you and miss you <3

my Grammy and i =] what an amzing woman . . .

Sammy`s request.. haha yup that`s me! =]

i`m out guys. i should really get to bed. ya know, the later to bed.. the crankier the Lauren. i don`t want it to snow because i cannot have one more day added on to our summer break. ahh. of course the opposite of what i want always happens so you might as well count on no school tomorrow. bye!

<3 ; Lauren

 

 

M00D // uhh.. relaxed..?
LiKiNG // the fact that i somewhat understand the basics of Photoshop.
DiSLiKiNG // the fact that i have a lottt more to learn.
WEARiNG // light purple Soffe shorts, a black cami, and black flip flops. haha do ya think i want summer much..?
LiSTENiNG T0 // AFI "Leaving Song Part II"
WiSHiNG // it was nice out so i could go for a jog // shoot around // do something.

y0o..*

EDiT // it`s such a shame about went on in Spain. the thing that`s really getting me is that it was exactly two and a half years away from September 11th, 2OO1. also, it`s exactly 911 days away from 9/11. wow.. how freakin` scary?! // END EDiT

wow.. me not updating in almost a week..? kinda scury. i`m getting s0o bored with Xanga but now i have Adobe Photoshop so therefore i have something new to learn =] haha wow what a dork..? Photoshop is really overwhelming, but as you get used to it, it gets a lot easier. i made my banner and all that good stuff, but it`s my first one. if you`re wondering why it looks like sh!t, then that`s why! oh well, i tried. i also took out my dropdown list with all the music. i didn`t feel like updating the music all the time, so i just decided to keep one song.

anyway, school`s good i guess. tell me why i have all A`s, mostly high A`s, yet i have a 82% in Science..? Mr. Schindele cannot teach. he makes everything extremely difficult. GRR. besides grades, school is really boring. i`m s0o ready to go to the high school and meet new people. i just learned that there`s basically three people that i automatically have the best relationship with. Remi, Shaii, and Dana. i love ya`ll <3 i`m not saying i don`t trust anyone else, it`s just that these people are ALWAYS there, and i have the best time with them. i hate when people wanna argue over every other petty thing that goes on. damn, get over yourselves. i`m just trying not to have enemies or anything of the sort. i hate when there`s like 237427489 petty things going on. so basically from now on i`m gonna try as hard as i can just to not let stupid people get to me.

this week has been very boring! i went to the YMCA, had a game against Jazzy`s team, got a massage at Rupunzel`s.. but that`s about it. i swear every week is getting more and more boring. there`s basically nothing to write about for Friday because i was GR0UNDED. wtf. i shouldn`t be grounded over things that i don`t even recall happening. i guess i need to watch my mouth, but seriously.. my mom isn`t ALWAYS right like she thinks she is. i basically cleaned that night, made dinner, talked on the phone until about 2, and then went to bed. i know you guys wanted to be with me on Friday, i had a blast. heh, no. this Friday shall make up for it though. hopefully my plans work out with Lauren and Mo..? Mo i hope you`re having the best time in Cali!

SATURDAY // LAST NiGHT // i had a game around 1 and we lost, of course. after, my mother, my father, and i went to eat at this really cool restaurant. later i went to Remi`s church with her, Shelli, and Rob. it was this concert and it made me think about a lot. everytime i go to church i get such a better perspective on life. i really should go more. that`s why i`ve been trying really hard to read my Bible lately. it was lots of fun though! it was a lot more crowded then we expected, too. we were crackin` up over every little thing.. especially Remi and i. wow Rems the boys =] PAPAYY. haha. Cross Movement was there but they didn`t perform =[ GRR. Cross Movement groupies! hahahaha. okay i`m done.

T0DAY // consisted of me being lazy and procrastinating. the end.

i didn`t sleep over Remi`s with Shelli so i could go to church with them today because my mom wanted me to go to church with her and what happens..? we don`t even go to church. i had the biggest feeling that would happen. blah.

<3

i`m cool because i steal survey`s from Jared when i`m bored.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | being hurt physically
02 | being hurt emotionally
03 | being a failure

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | my best friends
02 | R&B and Punk music
03 | my family

THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | school // bad grades // gay teachers
02 | boredom [it happens to me all the time]
03 | not being able to do something right

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | the male species
02 | selfishness
03 | fakeness

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | my webcam
02 | skittles
03 | flowers

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | taking this survey
02 | talking to people
03 | listening to music

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | skydive
02 | go to 371248971289 concerts
03 | travel the world [i`m serious]

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | it varies depending on my mood.. mostly chipper
02 | a perfectionist to the extreme
03 | sometimes too mature, sometimes too immature

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Fall Out Boy
02 | Bob Marley
03 | Boyz II Men

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SOULDN'T LISTEN TO:
01 | gay rap that`s forever disrespecting women
02 | depressing music with lots of screaming [Slipknot]
03 | what others have to say about you

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | yeah dude
02 | holler
03 | oooh

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | chicken caesar salad
02 | chicken fingers with fries
03 | peanut butter pie

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water
02 | fruit punch
03 | milk

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED AS A YOUNG CHILD:
01 | Sesame Street
02 | Mr. Rogers
03 | Reading Rainbow [yeah all educational shows, what can i say?]

RANDOM QUESTIONS:
01 | Spell your name backwards: Nerual
02 | How did you get your xanga name: haha, who knows.. but i hate it.
03 | Who do you love: my family and friends

also . . .

1. go into your media player
2. put it on random selection
3. write down the first 15 songs it plays no matter how embarrasing

1. Ruben Studdard - Sweet Home Alabama [hahahaha]
2. The Neptunes - Lapdance
3. John Mayer - Your Body Is A Wonderland
4. Atmosphere - Always Coming Back Home To You
5. Beenie Man - Everybody Falls In Love Sometimes
5. Jay Z - Song Cry
6. Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss
7. Fall Out Boy - Saturday
8. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Califorication
9. Frank Sinatra - I`ve Got The World On A String
10. Ludacris - Growing Pains
11. Mae - Embers and Envelopes
12. Beyonce and P Diddy - Summertime
13. Matchbook Romance - The Greatest Fall Of All Time
14. Nas and P Diddy - Hate Me Now
15. Taking Back Sunday - You`re So Last Summer

yay! that was so fun.. i wanted to keep going!

<3

alright, i really should go do something else besides sit on this damn computer all day. i don`t care what the weather`s like, i`m going to shoot around and that`s final. bye kids =P

[L]ove [L]auren