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Saturday, March 27, 2004

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 22:45:37 GMT

HELL0 EVERYB0DY;

i`M D0NE XANGA F0R A WHiLE . . . iT`S BEC0MiNG A WASTE 0F MY TiME

i`M JUST STARTiNG T0 REALiZE THiNGS ARE S0 MUCH M0RE iMP0RTANT iN LiFE! AS WE GR0W 0LDER, WE START T0 REALiZE M0RE AND M0RE WHAT WiLL AND WHAT WiLL N0T MATTER iN 0UR FUTURES.

THiNGS THAT WiLL MATTER iN Y0UR FUTURE; Y0UR FRiENDS AND FAMiLY WH0 HAVE STUCK BY Y0UR SiDE, Y0UR GRADES AND EDUCATi0N, AND ALWAYS STAYiNG TRUE T0 Y0URSELF.

THiNGS THAT WiLL NEVER MATTER iN Y0UR FUTURE; JUDGEMENTS AND ASSUMPTi0NS THAT HAVE BEEN MADE AGAiNST Y0U, PE0PLE THAT BRiNG Y0U D0WN, AND H0W NiCE Y0UR XANGA iS // H0W MUCH TiME Y0U SPEND 0N iT! i C0ULD G0 0N BUT i CH00SE N0T T0. i`M JUST TRYiNG T0 PR0VE A P0iNT.

L0VE; LAUREN

Thursday, March 25, 2004

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 21:04:51 GMT

M00D; Happy yet confused…?
LiKiNG; Reggae =]
DiSLiKiNG; Assumptions // Judgments // Hypocrites
WEARiNG; A gray sweat outfit // set and a white shirt under. White AF1`s.
LiSTENiNG T0; Bob Marley “No Woman No Cry”
WiSHiNG; That this coming weekend would last forever.

Hola kiddos!

Overall, I can actually say this has been a good week. Usually the weekdays are boring as hell, but I`m guessing I had fun because of the half days and whatnot. Grades are good. Friends are good. Family is good. People in general, are not. They`re so judgmental and it`s really pathetic. Not necessarily towards me (even though I know people are), but just to like, everyone! That`s why I try as hard as possible not to judge people constantly because I know it`s not a good feeling. Also, the love department is bad. I haven`t had a boyfriend since the summer and it`s really starting to piss me off. I basically like the feeling of having a boyfriend, what girl doesn`t...? I mean, love from family and friends is great, but the love coming from someone you have feelings for in a different way is completely different. I guess I don`t really know what I`m trying to say. Haha. Oh well . . .

M0NDAY; Okay, so I find out that the website I ordered my Warped Tour ticket from was fake. Out of curiosity I went on TicketMaster.com and saw that the tickets only cost $25.25! On the website I bought mine from, they were $90. My mom was freaking out because they have her credit card number and everything. She cancelled the order but we`re hoping nothing happens =[ So anyway, we decide to go to Strawbridge`s to get the ticket and I was all happy because paying $25.25 is a WH0LE lot better than paying $90. I thought $90 was a bit much but I was just being stupid. Good thing I found out =]

TUESDAY; A half day . . . yes =] I didn`t really have plans but Jazzy called me after school saying that I could go out to lunch with her and her mom. Ahh, her mom is so funny! She had me Jazzy and I dyin`! We talked about the formal and whatnot . . . and honestly, I`m starting not to care about it. Hopefully my mommy and I can go shopping this weekend. I need spring clothes and a dress really bad! After lunch, we went to see Elice cause it was her birthday. It was pretty fun considering I haven`t been down on Elm since forever! It was Jazzy, Richie, Ell, Mike, Ash, Elice, Shelly, Rece, Nick, and I . . . I think…? It was cool chillin` with all my old buddies.

WEDNESDAY; It was another half day so after school Apryl and I took the bus to Remi`s house. After getting ready and stuff, Safa took us to the Cheltenham Mall to get our pics done. Uhh, they were cute but not like we expected! We looked like a singing group cause we all matched =] If you want a pic, let me know! They`re at the bottom if you want to see them. FYI... I can`t scan pics! After we went to Subway and ate some good hoagies! Remi was still talking about them today . . . haha. A little later we saw Jazzy, Shaii Shaii, Gina, and Rob. We didn`t really chill with them much though. Shaii Shaii - “AWW HELL NAW!“ <-- T00 funny. The way Apryl acted towards that lady was so funny yet so ignorant! I didn`t know if I should have laughed or smacked her…? Haha. And my “Indian Connection” . . . LMA0 =] I seriously hate that mall, it`s so boring! I always say I`m never going to go there again but then I do, unfortunately. But I`m happy I had fun with my girls!

T0DAY; Boring! These cute triplets came in for HSCS though. This one was so cute! And after school I had my first detention all year! I`m quite proud because I`m doing well compared to 14 detentions last year. I guess being good pays off, but I knew this detention would come eventually! Being late is so easy and teachers piss me off left and right. I have a big ass Science test tomorrow that basically determines whether I have an A or a B in that class for the 3rd marking period. Wish me luck! =[

I`m out cause I need to start studying. Also, I need to call Dana so we can hopefully chill this weekend! I miss her so much it`s crazy. Plus I want to meet her boyfriend! AND she`s coming to Warped Tour with me. Yay =] I feel so fat x 1472874820 therefore I can`t wait to go to the YMCA tonight!

<3 ; Lauren

Haha . . . the bottoms of our shoes were so dirty! Yucky.

Monday, March 22, 2004

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 01:54:17 GMT

M00D; chillin`..? also C0NFUSED
LiKiNG; only i know =[
DiSLiKiNG; how much i miss him
WEARiNG; hot pink baby T, jeans, black belt, black AF1`s
LiSTENiNG T0; Usher "Burn" <-- exactly how i`m feeling
WiSHiNG; this weekend wouldn`t end

hola mi amor =] the music is back!

this weekend has been great . . .

FRiDAY; ha.. see what did i tell ya? since i wanted us to have school, we didn`t.. of course. the freakin` snow made me MAD though. geez, what happened to Spring..? that definately should have been a 2 hour delay instead of a snow day. another day added on to the school year..? pshh. i guess it was a cool day after all, though. my plans got messed up like 2873826 times but it ended up being okay. first i was supposed to go to the PF with Lauren and Mo. the dance was cancelled and they never really told me what else they were doing so i just left it at that. next, Jazzy, Shaii, Remi, and i wanted to go to Willow Grove Mall, but that didn`t work out either. then i was supposed to go to church with Remi and Shaii but i didn`t have a ride =[ i really wanted to go too. after that i was talking to Jazzy and we wanted to got to see "Dawn of the Dead" so we were like yeahh we finally have plans. then Sergio calls and says he`s coming down with Madou so that was cool. i finally got to see him after a really long time, i missed him! and Madou, he`s like the coolest person ever. overall it was Jazzy, Sergio, Madou, Polo, and i. so we go, Jazzy`s mom gets the tickets cause it was rated R, and we all start to walk in, i get in and notice they all weren`t behind me. so Jazzy calls and says the security guard was saying we had to leave. i was like whatt. so i go out and he was just a complete ass. he had nothing to back himself up with, considering there were about 127346254 other kids our age in there. it really sucked cause Mikie and Walt went out of their way to meet us there and we couldn`t even chill with them. so anyway, we go to the front, get our refund and this lady [another ignorant person] was giving us attitude too! we were real pissed so we went and waited outside. we were standing there waiting for Jazzy`s mom, minding our business, and out of nowhere he comes out and says "Do you wanna go to jail cause I can get all of you locked up" ahh we wanted to kill him. we were like uhh are you serious..? he had the nerve to tell us to leave the property or else he was going to call the cops. what an ass. so we go to McDonald`s, get our McFlurries, and go chill at Jazzy`s for a little. what an interesting night.

SATURDAY; i basically did nothing all day. i exercised, cleaned, chilled.. boring stuff. then i finally got my ass in the shower and started to get ready for WOW. Shaii couldn`t go.. i missed you babes =[ it ended up just being Jazzy, Polo, and i. as soon as we got there we saw Apryl and her cousin Sheena so we just chilled with them the rest of the night. Sheena is such a sweetheart. i was happy i got to meet her. it was kind of corny at first but once everyone got there it was so fun. i saw George, who i haven`t seen in forever, so i was all happy. haha. wow, until that night i never knew how excited people could get over a white girl that could dance..? once i started dancing with this boy a crowd formed around me and they were like "Go white girl" of "Oh white girl can dance" ahh it was pretty funny. i felt like i was in Save the Last Dance.. haha. then everywhere i went people were calling me "White Girl" and it got really annoying so i was like "I have a name and it`s not White Girl, it`s Lauren" most of the people in there were really cool though, boys and girls. i thought it was about 296462450 x better than Egypt. people were cool, the guys were fine, and basically everyone was dancing. very fun though, i wanna go again. once we all got back at Jazzy`s we just chilled there and i ended up fallin` asleep for like and hour. when i woke up i went home at like 2:3O cause my mom was FiNALLY home and i could FiNALLY get in the house. i`m proud of my mommy though, she`s finally getting out more. as soon as i walked in the door i fell asleep. i was knocked out.

SUNDAY; T0DAY; my daddy came and picked me up at about 11 and we went out to get something to eat. once we finished up we went bowling, yes again! i`m getting better and better everytime =] we played 3 games and in every game my dad beat me by only about 3O, which is pretty good cause he`s a real good bowler. in my last game my final score was 172. G0 ME =] haha sorry, i`m still real excited. after, we went back to my dad`s and my little cousins were over.. Gracey and Alex. they are s0o0o0o adorable! i was playing with them for like two hours. hide and seek gets old after a while so i just went outside and started shooting around. before i knew it like 219744789 kids plus my family came out and we started a game. it was really fun and for some reason my shot was on today, of course when it doesn`t matter. why can`t a make almost all my shots in games..? GRR. i was playing with this little girl Emma after. she`s like my favorite little kid ever. she`s three and she acts like she`s a 10 year old little boy.. it`s so funny. ahh.. i love her. then after everyone left, my daddy, Chris, and i went inside and played X Box. on our way home we ran out of gas and we had to wait for my Aunt Nicey to come and bring us gas. in the meantime we were really bored so we prank called this Chinese Restaurant. i swear it was the funniest thing i`ve ever experienced in my life. ahh, ya gotta love my fam <3 now i`m home, bored, and about to go to sleep cause i got about no hours of sleep this weekend.

here`s some pictures from my adventures by myself today. you really don`t have to look at them, i just got kind of bored and decided to put them up. enjoy..? uhmm, no.

talking on my BEASTY cell phone. i really need a new one.

haha.. don`t ask.

super..? by the way, my thumb has a problem where it just can`t be straight when i give a thumbs up. it really pisses me off.

i`m mean, i know.

Lawyn Luffz Ya =]

i stole this from my Stupid Hommay =]

i`m out . . . i <3 you

Friday, March 19, 2004

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 03:02:02 GMT

M00D; tired yet not..?
LiKiNG; [ _ _ _ _ ] <-- A L0T <3
DiSLiKiNG; the fact that i`ll never get him back
WEARiNG; light pink soffe shorts, white cami, white socks
LiSTENiNG T0; The Ataris "In This Diary"
WiSHiNG; it doesn`t freakin` snow!

hey ya`ll . . .

okay so i never write in this thing this time of night or in the middle of the week, but something told me it was a must. obiously i have a whole new look. Adobe PS is s0o addicting, even more than Xanga. get ready for a different look like every two seconds. i like those colors together for some reason..? blue, yellow, and white plus Carmello Anthony and the Denver Nuggets! yeahh boyy. those shoes in the background are too hot. i love them. Shaii already got them in grey, white, and pink. how cute. haha and i love the new song, it gets me so hyper! so anyway, comment me and let me know what you think! also, look on Remi`s Xanga. i did her banner =]

grades still suck because of my one freakin` B because Mr. Schindele STiLL can`t teach. i hate that class. school was extremely boring whis week. American Idol is really good this season. i love George, Jasmine, Fantasia, and LaToya. they all have the best personalities and they can sing real good. i`m still s0o excited for Amanda! good luck with the Jersey Idol finals, whenever they are. i exercised every night this week since Sunday though, i`m quite proud. i just need to stop eating so much junk food and i`m set. me and my mommy are going on this diet together starting Monday. i can`t wait. if you follow everything correctly, which will be hard, you can loose up to eight pounds in one week! the diet is three weeks so that equals 24 pounds! [my math skills are incrdible by the way]. i D0UBT majorly that i`ll loose 24 pounds in 3 weeks, yet ever for that matter, but hey.. it`s worth a try.

so the formal is coming up. i`m really excited all of the sudden! my mom and i are supposedly going dress shopping this Sunday. i swear she`s more excited about it than i am. she said the day before we`re gonna go get our nails done and pedicures done together =] i love when we get along, and we have been lately so that`s cool. anyway, back to the formal. so far i`m going with Jason AS FRiENDS! people keep saying "Oh that`s cute!" but really it`s not even like that. i really like someone else but i messed that up a WHiLE ago! Lord knows why i still have really strong feelings for him or even have him on my mind for that matter..? i guess it ended for a reason =[ unfortunately. i hope i find a real cute dress though! my mom`s willing to spend more money though since i`ll be wearing it to my cousin`s wedding too! yes.. summer is coming soon! sike, definately not soon enough. Florida, Cali, Wildwood, Ocean City, Warped Tour, NY.. i can`t WAiT. you just don`t understand.

this weekend should be real fun! tomorrow Mo, Lauren, and i are going to the PF dance. well, hopefully.. if we can get in! if not some girl`s having a party..? i duno we`ll find something to do. then we`re sleeping over Mo`s dad`s house. i`m excited =] i know we`ll have fun! then Saturday i`m finally chillin` with Sergio after 128732164 years! i`m glad we got to talk things out hommay cause i don`t know what i`d do without you. hopefully everyone wants to go to WOW. i`ve never been there but it seems fun. Apryl said there`s some fine Italian boys there so you know i`m excited! haha. yeah.

0H YEAH.. HAPPY BELATED SAiNT PATRiCK`S DAY MY iRiSH PE0PLE!!! represent.. haha sike. how i`m i gonna be a lot of percent Irish and i forget all about St. Patrick`s Day..? oh well.

this Saturday is the first day of Spring, but also my Grammy`s birthday. RIP Grammy! i love you s0o much and i would do anything to have you here with me =[ it`s such an odd coincedence that she was born on the first day of the most beautiful time of year.. well, usually. i wrote a poem about her but it`s way too emotional // personal for me to put up here. i planned on doing so, but i changed my mind. on a happier note, well kind of.. HAPPY SPRiNG WiTH SN0WFLAKES 0N T0P! whew, i crack myself up hahaha. but wow Grammy, i love you and miss you <3

my Grammy and i =] what an amzing woman . . .

Sammy`s request.. haha yup that`s me! =]

i`m out guys. i should really get to bed. ya know, the later to bed.. the crankier the Lauren. i don`t want it to snow because i cannot have one more day added on to our summer break. ahh. of course the opposite of what i want always happens so you might as well count on no school tomorrow. bye!

<3 ; Lauren

Sunday, March 14, 2004

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 18:51:31 GMT

M00D // uhh.. relaxed..?
LiKiNG // the fact that i somewhat understand the basics of Photoshop.
DiSLiKiNG // the fact that i have a lottt more to learn.
WEARiNG // light purple Soffe shorts, a black cami, and black flip flops. haha do ya think i want summer much..?
LiSTENiNG T0 // AFI "Leaving Song Part II"
WiSHiNG // it was nice out so i could go for a jog // shoot around // do something.

y0o..*

EDiT // it`s such a shame about went on in Spain. the thing that`s really getting me is that it was exactly two and a half years away from September 11th, 2OO1. also, it`s exactly 911 days away from 9/11. wow.. how freakin` scary?! // END EDiT

wow.. me not updating in almost a week..? kinda scury. i`m getting s0o bored with Xanga but now i have Adobe Photoshop so therefore i have something new to learn =] haha wow what a dork..? Photoshop is really overwhelming, but as you get used to it, it gets a lot easier. i made my banner and all that good stuff, but it`s my first one. if you`re wondering why it looks like sh!t, then that`s why! oh well, i tried. i also took out my dropdown list with all the music. i didn`t feel like updating the music all the time, so i just decided to keep one song.

anyway, school`s good i guess. tell me why i have all A`s, mostly high A`s, yet i have a 82% in Science..? Mr. Schindele cannot teach. he makes everything extremely difficult. GRR. besides grades, school is really boring. i`m s0o ready to go to the high school and meet new people. i just learned that there`s basically three people that i automatically have the best relationship with. Remi, Shaii, and Dana. i love ya`ll <3 i`m not saying i don`t trust anyone else, it`s just that these people are ALWAYS there, and i have the best time with them. i hate when people wanna argue over every other petty thing that goes on. damn, get over yourselves. i`m just trying not to have enemies or anything of the sort. i hate when there`s like 237427489 petty things going on. so basically from now on i`m gonna try as hard as i can just to not let stupid people get to me.

this week has been very boring! i went to the YMCA, had a game against Jazzy`s team, got a massage at Rupunzel`s.. but that`s about it. i swear every week is getting more and more boring. there`s basically nothing to write about for Friday because i was GR0UNDED. wtf. i shouldn`t be grounded over things that i don`t even recall happening. i guess i need to watch my mouth, but seriously.. my mom isn`t ALWAYS right like she thinks she is. i basically cleaned that night, made dinner, talked on the phone until about 2, and then went to bed. i know you guys wanted to be with me on Friday, i had a blast. heh, no. this Friday shall make up for it though. hopefully my plans work out with Lauren and Mo..? Mo i hope you`re having the best time in Cali!

SATURDAY // LAST NiGHT // i had a game around 1 and we lost, of course. after, my mother, my father, and i went to eat at this really cool restaurant. later i went to Remi`s church with her, Shelli, and Rob. it was this concert and it made me think about a lot. everytime i go to church i get such a better perspective on life. i really should go more. that`s why i`ve been trying really hard to read my Bible lately. it was lots of fun though! it was a lot more crowded then we expected, too. we were crackin` up over every little thing.. especially Remi and i. wow Rems the boys =] PAPAYY. haha. Cross Movement was there but they didn`t perform =[ GRR. Cross Movement groupies! hahahaha. okay i`m done.

T0DAY // consisted of me being lazy and procrastinating. the end.

i didn`t sleep over Remi`s with Shelli so i could go to church with them today because my mom wanted me to go to church with her and what happens..? we don`t even go to church. i had the biggest feeling that would happen. blah.

i`m cool because i steal survey`s from Jared when i`m bored.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | being hurt physically
02 | being hurt emotionally
03 | being a failure

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | my best friends
02 | R&B and Punk music
03 | my family

THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | school // bad grades // gay teachers
02 | boredom [it happens to me all the time]
03 | not being able to do something right

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | the male species
02 | selfishness
03 | fakeness

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | my webcam
02 | skittles
03 | flowers

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | taking this survey
02 | talking to people
03 | listening to music

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | skydive
02 | go to 371248971289 concerts
03 | travel the world [i`m serious]

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | it varies depending on my mood.. mostly chipper
02 | a perfectionist to the extreme
03 | sometimes too mature, sometimes too immature

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Fall Out Boy
02 | Bob Marley
03 | Boyz II Men

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SOULDN'T LISTEN TO:
01 | gay rap that`s forever disrespecting women
02 | depressing music with lots of screaming [Slipknot]
03 | what others have to say about you

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | yeah dude
02 | holler
03 | oooh

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | chicken caesar salad
02 | chicken fingers with fries
03 | peanut butter pie

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water
02 | fruit punch
03 | milk

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED AS A YOUNG CHILD:
01 | Sesame Street
02 | Mr. Rogers
03 | Reading Rainbow [yeah all educational shows, what can i say?]

RANDOM QUESTIONS:
01 | Spell your name backwards: Nerual
02 | How did you get your xanga name: haha, who knows.. but i hate it.
03 | Who do you love: my family and friends

also . . .

1. go into your media player
2. put it on random selection
3. write down the first 15 songs it plays no matter how embarrasing

1. Ruben Studdard - Sweet Home Alabama [hahahaha]
2. The Neptunes - Lapdance
3. John Mayer - Your Body Is A Wonderland
4. Atmosphere - Always Coming Back Home To You
5. Beenie Man - Everybody Falls In Love Sometimes
5. Jay Z - Song Cry
6. Dashboard Confessional - Rapid Hope Loss
7. Fall Out Boy - Saturday
8. Red Hot Chili Peppers - Califorication
9. Frank Sinatra - I`ve Got The World On A String
10. Ludacris - Growing Pains
11. Mae - Embers and Envelopes
12. Beyonce and P Diddy - Summertime
13. Matchbook Romance - The Greatest Fall Of All Time
14. Nas and P Diddy - Hate Me Now
15. Taking Back Sunday - You`re So Last Summer

yay! that was so fun.. i wanted to keep going!

alright, i really should go do something else besides sit on this damn computer all day. i don`t care what the weather`s like, i`m going to shoot around and that`s final. bye kids =P

[L]ove [L]auren

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 20:33:03 GMT

LAUREN NEEDS A J0B!!! (M0NEY)

M00D // very confuzzled. and that is why i don`t like you. haha.
LiKiNG // the fact that i have no homework
DiSLiKiNG // assumptions in general
WEARiNG // black jeans, black belt, striped polo shirt, and black AF1`s
LiSTENiNG T0 // the Less Than Jake CD i just burnt
WiSHiNG // that Spring would come faster

y0o..*

so it`s only Tuesday and it feels like it`s Thursday or something.. slow weeks suck! and because the weather is so off and on my allergies are going crazy! one day it`s all sunny and 60 degrees and then on days like today it snows..? this always happens.. like whenever it goes from Winter to Spring my allergies get horrible. i sound like Julian when i talk and my nose is s0o stuffy! ew.

today after school my mom is getting my Warped Tour ticket for me! of course i have to pay her back when i get the money, but for now she doesn`t mind because i convinced her. ha. i would normally ask who would like to go with me but i`ve now decided i don`t care because people i know are already going. if you do wanna go with me though, let me know. i also haven`t heard of a few of the bands that are gonna be there but oh well i`ll have time to listen to their music. this is who`s gonna be there:

Alkaline Trio
Allister
Anatomy of A Ghost
Anti-Flag
Atmosphere
Avenged Sevenfold
Bad Religion
The Beautiful Mistake
Billy Talent
The Briggs
Bouncing Souls
Chronic Future
Coheed and Cambria
Don't Look Down
Fall Out Boy
Flogging Molly
From Autumn to Ashes
Go Betty Go
Good Charlotte
Hazen Street
IMA Robot
The (Int'l) Noise Conspiracy
Jackson
Juliette & the Licks
Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Letter Kills
Lennon
Lillix
Mae

Matchbook Romance
Motion City Soundtrack
My Chemical Romance
New Found Glory
NOFX
Pulley
Rise Against
Rose Hill Drive
Rufio
Sahara Hotnights
Senses Fail
Simple Plan
Story of the Year
Sugarcult
Taking Back Sunday
The Casualties
The Early November
The Eyeliners
The F*** Ups
The God Awfuls
The Kinison
The Red West
The Revolution Smile
The Sounds
The Vandals
Thursday
Tiger Army
Washington Social Club
Yellowcard

SATURDAY // plans DiD N0T go anywhere according to plan but in the end it was such a great day. my dad, brother, Remi, and i were supposed to go to Jillian`s or something but that changed completely. the whole side of my dad`s family was invited to Town and Country to bowl and Rems didn`t come because it was more like a family thing. then i was talking to Em and she ended up coming down, but it didn`t really matter because she goes way back with my dad`s family. bowling was s0o fun.. as always. i was doing really good too! watching my little cousins bowl was so fun, and they`re adorable. it was just great to be with my family. they`re the best. but overall my dad had a great birthday, he was really happy. it`s always good to see him like that. so afterward Em and i just chilled here. aww, she`s getting a little belly! i missed her a lot.. that`s my girl =] so she slept over and yeah, that`s about it.

SUNDAY // my father drove Emily home and then since it was such a beautiful day, my family and i went to Whites Road Park. we were playing basketball for two hours! then my mom and i took a walk while my dad and Chris played soccer. since we`re now totally addicted to bowling, afterward we went again! haha. i did even better than the night before. my dad is amazing. he was s0o close to reaching 2OO. my mom`s pretty good too. i actually beat her the second game. but yeah, that was pretty much my day. a very family oriented weekend you could say..? but it was definately fun because my family means the world to me. i wish those pretty Spring days would come and STAY! grr.

M0NDAY // haha, well i usually don`t write about Mondays cause it`s the first day of school after a nice weekend but i actually had fun that night. after school Remi came home with me, then Shaii came over, and then we went to KOP mall. the only reason we went on a Monday was because my mom`s new business is gonna be right across the street. GREAT location! i`m s0o happy for her. you better believe i`ll be there all the time. last night was great though because i was with two of my best friends and we had fun together, as always <3 and Sergio was supposed to come but he had work. but seriously, i saw like 274916478 cute things and a lot of them were pink which makes them even better. Shaii found the cutest sneakers that i`m obsessed with. and of course in Guess ? i was having orgasms over the clothes! haha sike, they were adorable though! it made me want a job even more. lately since i`ve been doing so much i`ve been so broke! ahh i need a job really bad. but once my mom`s business starts i`m gonna work for her under the table. yeahh boyy =] haha.. it was s0o funny.. Remi and i were craving candy [mainly chocolate] so bad. finally we found a store similar to Mr. Bulky after our million hour search! we were quite pleased. yay!

<3 // PiCTURES // <3

grey, pink, and white!!! how perfect..?

these shoes with . . .

. . . this jersey. again, how perfect..? i know this made Ashley mad. hahaha.

Emily is s0o silly!

yummay =P

who knows..?

the sexiest pic we could get! hahaha.

B...u r cautious when it comes to meeting new people
C...u have a partier side in u dont be shy to show it
D...u have trouble trusting people
E...u r a exciting person
F...everyone loves u
G...u have excellent ways of viewing people
H...u are not judgemental
I...u are always making others smile
J...jealousy
K...u like to try new things
L...love is some u believe in
M...success comes easy
N...u like to work but u want a break
O...u r open minded
P...u r friendly & understanding
Q...u r a hypocrite
R...u r a social butterfly
S...u r broad minded
T...u have good physical looks
U...u feel like u have to equal up to peoples standards
V... u have an attitude
W...u like ur privacy
X...u never let people tell u what to do
Y...u cause a lot of trouble
Z...ur always fighting

L...love is some u believe in
A...u can be quiet when u have some on ur mind
U...u feel like u have to equal up to peoples standards
R...u r a social butterfly
E...u r a exciting person
N...u like to work but u want a break

okay, now i`m gonna go read. my book is s0o good! i`m almost done. YMCA tonight plus my favorite shows ever are on! yay i`m s0o excited =]

oh yeah.. click here to see this hot freakin` car!!! i want it =[

<3 [L]ove [L]auren

Saturday, March 06, 2004

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 14:39:09 GMT

M00D; energetic! 12 hours of sleep bay bay!
LiKiNG; [ _ _ _ _ ] <3
DiSLiKiNG; my mom, she`s being so mean.
LiSTENiNG T0; the mix CD Bridget made me. i`m lovin` the randomness! haha.
WEARiNG; my hot froggy boxers, a white cami, and fuzzy slippers [PJ`s].
WiSHiNG; that my dad has a great birthday and that it stops raining so we can go to Garden Golf and go on the go karts!

HAPPY BiRTHDAY DADDY!!! [and Mikie]

C0NCERT PiCTURES!!! more added =]

hey ya`ll.. this has been a long while of not updating. well, for me atleast. this week has been great though. it went by pretty fast. Shaii and i noticed that as soon as we have to basically leave PB, we actually start liking it. people aren`t as bad as i thought. i guess i have to just give people a chance. it makes me feel like such a hypocrite when i say that though because i`m always wishing people would get to know me before they judge me =( wow i`m rambling already. Monday was just.. Monday so that was nothing special.

TUESDAY; it was only fun because i went the YMCA and worked out with Kate.. considering we haven`t done that in forever! lol. her and i are getting closer again and that`s always good. it seems like a lot of my old friendships are either getting better or are getting a hell of a lot worse..? i won`t get started on that though cause i could write a novel about that. Tuesday`s always make my day because the best shows ever are on. American Idol was pretty bad this week. One Tree Hill was the best as always. Real World was just BRAD! haha.

WEDNESDAY; after school Remi, Michelle, Rob, KK, Shaii, and i went to see "The Passion of the Christ". all i can say about that movie is WOW!!! how amazing..? i mean yeah it was real bloody like people said but according to The Bible.. that`s what happened! it was the only bloody movie i could actually watch for that exact reason. when you think of Jesus being crucified you only think of that. but from seeing the movie you realize how much he went through for US. yeah, the movie`s really hard to watch but you almost sound selfish saying that you don`t wanna see it because you don`t think you can handle it! the least you could do is understand the pain he went through for US because i know for a fact that after seeing that movie i feel 10x closer to God! it`s such a powerful movie and it has such an amazing impact. besides that i cried buckets with KK.. i don`t think i`ve ever cried that much in my life. after the movie we just all just looked at the blank screen for 10 minutes like WOW. i could barely talk. i was basically in shock the whole rest of the night. Shaii and i agree that the rest of the week was different after seeing that. after the movie i went to see Chris try out for his yellow stripe in Tae Kwon Do. he was the best in his age group.. he did REALLY good! i`m s0o proud of him.

THURSDAY; the concert! it was s0o much fun. we somehow figured out how to squeeze our way through the crowd and get right up to the front. it was great, the stage was like right there! and because i had a fat dude for cushion right in front of me, i didn`t get hurt. Dynamite Boy was just B00! the lead singer was like 40 and fat and sweaty and said "mother f*cker" like every other word. their songs were really boring. the only person Laur and i liked was the guitarist closest to us. Matchbook Romace was next but uhh they weren`t as good as i expected they would be live. one of their guitarists was s0o fine though! haha, i still love them though <3 their CD is great. then came FALL 0UT B0Y!!! ahh they were awesome. Peter Wentz crowd dove and freakin` landed on my head! i felt like my neck was gonna break, but it`s all good. too bad Mest was setting up and my mom called Bridget`s cell and said she was outside! like half the people left after Fall Out Boy, it was funny. we didn`t care too much though because they weren`t the main people we wanted to see. Tony from Mest kept coming out during the other band`s sets anyway. but we were really sad because Patrick from Fall Out Boy remembered Bridget and we could have chilled with them! ahh =( but anyway.. that was that. what a fun night!

to our new best friends that had THREE extra tickets [how perfect..?] - WE L0VE Y0U!!! because i know for a fact we wouldn`t have gotten tickets there. the line was like 2387487274 miles long to buy tickets!

FRiDAY; my mom woke me up at like 7 saying "You have to go to school!" and i didn`t really care because at the moment i wasn`t tired. but once i was in school though, it caught up with me. 6 hours of sleep never does me good. but besides that the day was cool. like, the easiest school day ever! i was practically sleeping in every class. when i came home i was s0o tired so i took a nap, chilled, read, and went to bed at 9! haha it was pretty funny.

T0DAY; i`m supposed to be going out with my dad, Chris, and Remi since my daddy loves her! who knows what we`re doing yet..? the idea of going to Jillian`s is scratched because they had no lanes available. so we might go bowling around here or go to Garden Golf if the weather clears up!!! of course it has to be yucky on my dad`s birthday! so yeah, this day shall be good regardless of what we do. Rems call me when you see this!

__ _ __ <3 _ __ _ <3 __ _ __ <3 _ __ _ <3 __ _ __

they`re in no particular order . . . AMAZiNG =)

. . . and coming back in May..? and i wanna go to WARPED T0UR s0o0o0o0o freakin` bad! ahh.

Bridget saw the moon and got excited.

the fat, ugly, retarded guy from Dynamite Boy.

the lights were cool.. lol.

butt shot..?

i`m lovin` this pic.. <3

haha wow i love this pic even more..

his shirt says "don`t sweat the petty, pet the sweaty" LMA0

haha i changed "MEST" to "FALL 0UT B0Y" [Bridget`s idea]

Laur and i before

my cool shirt that i got at the concert! it says "Fall Out Boy is for lovers! Chicago soft core"

aww Emily looks s0o pretty! she`s having a boy! good luck with everything babe. i`m always here! i love you <333

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okay, well after rambling.. i have to go make my daddy a cake and wrap presents and all that good stuff. so yeah. i`m out.

<3 // [L]auren

Monday, March 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 00:22:02 GMT

M00D; tired but because i had a good weekend.
LiKiNG; my music.. it makes me happy =)
DiSLiKiNG; cleaning! chores suck.
LiSTENiNG T0; Dashboard Confessional "Rapid Hope Loss"
WEARiNG; black pin stripe pants, black beater, maroon polo shirt over, and black ankle boots. church clothes.
WiSHiNG; that i would stop PR0CRASTiNATiNG.. lol Rems.

__________ x3 __________ x3 __________ x3 __________

hola my loves!!!

PiCTURES AT THE B0TT0M..*

i already said it in one of my away messages, but for those who didn`t see it, i`ll say it again. on March 4th.. this Thursday.. Lauren Verost and i want to go to a concert in Allentown. four really good bands are going to be there including Mest, Fall Out Boy, Dynamite Boy, and Matchbook Romance. it`s going to be amazing, but one problem.. we need a ride home. if anybody is interested, let us know and i`ll give you a ride there! i don`t care who you are.. lol. for details go to www.crocodilerockcafe.com =) i WANNA G0 S000 BAD!!!

anyway . . . my weekend was fun stuff as always.

FRiDAY; it was "Wacky Day" at school so i wore my awesomely cool PJ pants that i MADE in HSCS.. i was s0o proud! i was matching though, lol. some people looked horrible to the point that i couldn`t look at them.. lol. it was funny though. considering i was in school, i had a really good day. after school i stayed for the 8th grade boy`s game. B0RiNG.. a little later my girlfriend Super Donkey came over, then came Sir Nicolas. we had a fun time i guess and then Jasmin drove us to the movies to see "Dirty Dancing II". there were oodles of people there such as Ash, Nick, Mandi, Rae, Rocki, Vron, Allie, Jazzy, Mary Lynn, Emily, Shelly, her cousin, Ashley, Brenna, Kim.. and some other people. the movie was actually really good! i can`t really compare the two because they were both good in different ways. i loved the dancing in this one. then when i came home i watched "Tuscany Under the Sun" with my mumsie. it was s0o good.. it`s one of those feel good movies, ya know..?

SATURDAY; i woke up s0o early but i wasn`t complaining because it was so i could go and get a facial, a manicure, and my hair cut // styled at Rupunzel`s. (Christmas gift). everyone who worked there was so nice! the girl who cut my hair was s0o freakin` pretty! i was jealous. when i left my hair was lookin` snazzy, my nails looked purty, and my skin felt great.. and then of course i had to go to my basketball game and mess my girliness up. it was actually a great game.. the best i`ve played in a while. after my dad and i went to Parkside to work on my shot and what not. that was fun. then i got dropped of at Remi`s. our plans kind of got messed up but oh well.. what can ya do..? of course we had fun anyway chillin` at her house. we stayed up until 1 talking.. not smart because we were going to church the next day.

T0DAY; lets see.. we woke up, got ready, and left. service was really good. i love the youth pastor there.. he`s s0o nice. we talked about the main idea of the movie "The Passion of the Christ". it made me realize how much Jesus had to go through for US and it`s like, people take it for granted constantly. there`s millions of people who don`t even BELiEVE! i mean, yeah, i`m not the most religious person, but i definately have the Lord in my life and could never picture my life without him. i`m just really looking forward to seeing that movie with Rems and my daddy. it seems like it could have a great impact on me. i saw Omari.. lol! funny stuff. after service Remi, Folash, Safa, Malachi, and i went out to breakfast // lunch at Ihop. that was cool. i love Malachi he`s the cutest ever! now i`m home and tired as ish. goodness, i feel like i`m gonna fall over. watch me go to bed at 8 tonight.

__________ x3 __________ x3 __________ x3 __________

this pictures are the best of me and Assley because they represent us hanging out TW0 whole weekends in a row! that`s a first in a L0NG while =)

Ashley is so cool.. lol.

don`t worry.. my finger isn`t actually in my nose.

i look like H0RRiBLE. oh well, movie pictures are always bad of me.

only losers scan their movie tickets..

Serg met Cassidy! =(

his autograph =(

Kevin Chav and i back in the day. aww =)

everyone that went bowling last weekend..

DANNY!!! <3

me being a cool loser. CHEESiN` MUCH..?

my sweet pea.

haha i know Remi will hate this pic.. haha okay maybe she doesn`t.

my two Ashley`s whom i love dearly.

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kay i`m out. doesn`t homework sound fun right about now..? blahh i just rmembered i have Science, Computer, and Math =( let me go cry now. haha sike.. bye ya`ll.

<3 // LAUREN MiCHELE

Thursday, February 26, 2004

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 21:08:35 GMT

M00D; happy because this week went by so fast.
LiKiNG; everyone that`s been there for me this week.
DiSLiKiNG; people walking all over me. 0VER and 0VER.
LiSTENiNG T0; Usher "You Got It Bad"
WEARiNG; my secksayyy gym uniform.
WiSHiNG; that summer would come more quickly.

y0o..*

R0ME0 iS HALF A YEAR 0LD T0DAY!!!

i`m currently reading an article that i believe you should all be aware of. a quote from the article states.. "Half of all young Americans will get a sexually transmitted disease by the age of 25, perhaps because they are ignorant about protection or embarrassed to ask for it, according to several reports issued yesterday."

anyway..*

whoa.. this week went by S000 quick! how wonderful :) what`s everyone doing this weekend..? well, let me know. i`m still deciding whether i should take the chance and see the second "Dirty Dancing".. they might ruin it like they do with most sequels.

M0NDAY; the school day was booty like whoaa. all Monday`s are though.. that night i had an MBA game. uhh not so great. there`s like one good person on my team. the rest are in like 6th and 7th grade..? it`s only making me worse. to top it off.. in the 2nd quarter, Fat Bastard had to knock me over, fall with me, and crush my foot. she sat on it and didn`t even say sorry! no foul called either.. oh hell no. i played the rest of the game but my foot was THR0BiNG. when i nudged into her she had the nerve to say "0WW!!!" and i was like "Whoa, you have a lot of nerve!".. so anywho, that was basically my night.

TUESDAY; haha that day was kind of funny because i was limping all day like a fag. i seriously thought my foot was broken.. the girls had their LAST game against Quakertown. it was probably the highest scoring game all season. they basically caught up to them at one point in the game, but went downhill after that. the final score was [44 to 55]. their season record was 5 and 9. that night i found out some stuff i wasn`t too happy about, but i didn`t let it ruin my night. plus, my shows came on! whoop whoop :) American Idol, One Tree Hill, and Real World make me so content. seriously though, One Tree Hill gets better and better every episode.

WEDNESDAY; school was kind of bad because there was drama like crazy. i won`t get into the details, but thank you everyone who was there for me. Remi, Shaii, and Sergio were like always. plus Mo, Lauren, Kamera, and whoever else. it means a lot, thanks guys <333 half of you people must think i`m crazy for ending a friendship over "something that small" but seriously, it was everything combined. that was basically the last thing i needed to hear to make my decision. fakeness and lying aren`t things i want in a friend.. i mean who does..? i want them to tell me stuff straight up, not say it behind my back. besides that my day was good because i had all my friends by my side.. that always makes me feel good. also, i got to chill with my daddy :)

T0DAY; wow.. Thursday already.. awesome. again, more drama. but this time i`m not gonna give into feeling bad for people. i always end up being the sucker.. but i can`t this time, i gotta be strong. gym was seriously the best ever with Mo, Kamera, Josh, and Rece. Mo and i were on a rollercoaster!!! haha.. we had so much fun. then after school we had an end of the season party. that pizza was good as shizzle. we were basically laughing about every little thing. me, Shaii, Remi, KK, and Mo were having s0o much fun! haha Remi was feeling major saltation.. "Roo Roo!!!" haha.. that was too funny. and of course i got the "Bathroom Award" because of our little trip to Taco Bell. haha. now i have tons of homework plus i have to go to the YMCA. but oh well! i don`t care.. life goes on. i`m so happy today :) Mo made my day.

*N0TE* i`m just curious.. but how can you cut yourself and then have the nerve to show people..? people that cut themselves for an actual "reason" never actually show it to people! that right there shows that whoever goes around flashing their cut wrists to people are doing it for pure attention!!! i also don`t think i`m perfect, but i try and have friends that are P0SiTiVE role models that help me become as close to perfect as possible. it doesn`t exactly mean that i`m trying to be like them.. i`m just trying to learn from them. i`m sorry ; i had to get that off my chest..

my entries feel naked without pics! i`m s0o lost without my camera! ahh.

__ _ __ _ __ _ __ <333 __ _ __ _ __ _ __ <333 __ _ __ _ __ _ __

best friend, lie to me
call me your best friend, sell me out
make me a fool, right or wrong
i tried my best just to stay so true
acting so cool, call it denial or blindness
you don`t treat your friends like this
cause you`re lying and hurting
you play your stupid games
you play your dirty tricks
say bad things, call me a user
i`m confused, who`s getting used
criticize behind my back
yeah, that i`m no good,
that i`m so damn rude
creeping like an assassin in the night
hurting your friends, it just ain`t right
why can`t you understand
stab my back and shake my hand
can`t you see.. it`s killing me
you play it cool, but i`m on to you
for i know that i`ll make it through
all the mud, you sling it so well
but tonight it comes back to you
call it denial or blindness

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i hope everyone has a great weekend! seriously, if anyone wants to do anything.. let me know because i have zero plans so far! and i hope summer comes soon! Cali, Florida, NY, Wildwood, and OC are calling my name! whee.. i`m so excited :) well, i`m out.

<3 // [L]auren

Sunday, February 22, 2004

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 20:27:31 GMT

EDiT // new colors..? i don`t know if i like the new look compared to my "pink and brown" look.. but i needed a change. my inspiration came from Remi`s outfit on Saturday night. haha thanks babe! oh yeah.. the colors are a bit DiFFERNT compared to everyone`s average colors such as blue, hot pink, purple, ect. but i want mine to be unique! <3 ya`ll // END EDiT

hola chicos y chicas..*

i want to speak Spanish fluently s0o bad!!! «--- RAND0M

anywho ; this is how my weekend went..

FRiDAY // school was gay of course, but my History and Science tests weren`t that bad..? well um, Science was real bad actually.. and i can`t afford that right now! as for my grades, they`re okay.. but they could be better. i have all A`s and a C in Health but the A`s are low so i have to make sure i keep them that way. better yet i should bring them up. Health is horrible.. especially with Mrs. McConnell cause she has to be all difficult about everything. whew, enough about my grades. after school we went to PF for the girl`s last away game. they played really well. too bad they didn`t play that good all season. the game was exciting, i was actually into it for once.. haha. the final score was real close [26-24]. of course i had to be grounded on Friday for something i didn`t even remember doing..? oh well nobody really did much anyway.

SATURDAY // i definately had the worst dream ever. i`ve never had a nightmare in my life, but this was horrible. as soon as i woke up i tried to figure out whether it was a dream or not. once i realized it was i started BAWLiNG. it was tears of joy because if that dream ever became reality, i don`t know what i would do with myself. i went into my mom`s room and she made me feel s0o much better. we talked for a long ass time and bonded. we kind of need that right now. then we started talking about summer vacations! whoop whoop :) in June i`m going to St. Augustine Florida for two to three weeks to stay with my cousins. then in the beginning of July i`m going to Ocean City, NJ with my dad and his side of the fam. he said i could bring three or four friends. H0TNESS. then towards the end of July i`m going to Wildwood, NJ with my mom, her friend`s family, and Dana. Wildwood is the best ever but my dad hates it so he wants to go to Ocean City instead.. i`m not complaining though. i wanna see LP and Fee s0o bad anyway! then at the end of August i`m going to San Francisco, Cali because my cousin Jason is getting married! i`m s0o excited! summer needs to come iMMEDiATELY! i got out of being grounded so at night me, Shaii, Ash, Remi, Kate, Apryl, Jazzy, Chris, Sergio, Danny, Curty, his friend, Nico, his cousin, Kyle, Josh, Rob, and Aaron all met up at Slack`s for a little belated birthday get together for Sergio and Shaii. we decided to bowl first, and then eat.. so we went to Lansbowl and they wouldn`t have lanes until 1O:OO! then we decided to walk to the Town and Country Lanes in Lansdale which was a hike! it was cold as shit but we were having s0o much fun. Remi -- PAPAYY.. hahahaha! i guess that was our "adventure" for the night. once we got there we went to Wendy`s and then bowled. it was s0o fun! even though i suck, i love bowling. i wanna do it like every weekend.. haha.

T0DAY // i woke up, did all of my chores since i kind of skipped them yesterday, and then went to brunch at William Penn Inn with my fam. OMG it was s0o good but i`m S000 freakin` full! ahh i feel like i`m gonna explode. that was definately my breakfast, lunch, and dinner. now i have homework and i have to do part of my math project.. fun right..? i also have to read for English but that i don`t mind cause my book is really good.

___ _ ___ __ _ // <3 --- - --- -- - <3 \\ ___ _ ___ __ _

N0W PLAYiNG // Kanye West - "Jesus Walks".. i agree Kevin Chav! College Dropout is such a good album. like every song on it is good. i need someone to burn it for me!

KANYE WEST <3

God show me the way
because the Devil`s trying to break me down
the only thing that i pray
is that my feet don`t fail me now
and i don`t think there is nothing
i can do now to right my wrongs
i want to talk to God
but i`m afraid because we ain`t spoke in so long

___ _ ___ __ _ // <3 --- - --- -- - <3 \\ ___ _ ___ __ _

i`m sorry for the RAND0M RAMBLiNG! i`m in such a chatty mood today though.. you don`t have to read it all.. haha. well, i`m out.

0/\/E L0VE // <3 // LAUREN